OK. First, dirty, rough, really lousy (i.e. perfect) draft of the prospectus in the books. So to speak.
Now it’s all about the research, reading secondary source after secondary source, pulling ideas and quotes I can use…. well, that and reading the prospectuses of two of my classmates so I can respond to them.
And this busy-ness is a good thing.
Found out on Friday that I didn’t get the teaching gig.
It’s a drag. No matter how I tried to spin it (preemptively), it’s still a helluva disappointment.
So what do you do when you get kicked in the teeth? You get up to get kicked again. I’m auditioning for a show tonight that I won’t get. I didn’t want to audition for it before, since I didn’t want to have risk having to work on that while putting together a new classroom. Well… Won’t need to worry about that now.
Even if I don’t get the play, it’s important that I get out there and seen by people who might cast me later (I’m now more convinced that it’s not so much who you know, but who knows you). Or I might just be preemptively spinning again.
Look. It’s either self-deception or depression.